Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Holliday Greetings!

The holidays are here yet again.  I am here to remind you to slow down and take time to appreciate all the little things.  This time of year can be so stressful, so take a deep breath and thank God for all that you are able to do.

This Christmas season feels a bit different for me.  I did all of my own Christmas shopping.  That means that I drove myself to all of the stores, parked far from the door and had to deal with the busy isles.  This is something that I had to have my mom help me with in years past and I had to park in the handicap spaces.  Not this year!!!

I am even done with all of my wrapping.   In all the years past, my mom wrapped all of the gifts because my hands didn't allow me to cut with scissors or rip the scotch tape off of the dispenser.  Don't get me wrong I accepted my moms help to wrap all the kids gifts this year, but I joined her.  I stood at her kitchen table and we wrapped all the gifts together.  Yes, I said it, "I stood while wrapping gifts!"

This weekend, I'm looking forward to baking cookies all afternoon with my daughters and nieces.  Baking cookies was never easy for me for so many reasons.  This year will be so different and I can't wait to giggle in my mom's kitchen with these six wonderful girls.

I must add that I'm doing all these things as a pregnant woman who feels nausea nearly all day long.  So, on that note try not to get too crabby this holiday season and be happy for ALL of the gifts that are not under your tree, but are there all year long.

Monday, November 14, 2011

Living the Dream

As a little girl and teenager I always told myself and others that I didn't want children.  That was not true and I knew that deep down inside.  The truth was that I wanted to have three children because I came from a wonderful family with two siblings.  I wanted the same thing, but didn't know if it was possible.  I didn't want to let myself down.

When I was 25 I was blessed with a baby girl.  The problem was that my pregnancy was so physically demanding for someone suffering with Spastic Dipigia (I talk about this more in my book).  I didn't know if I could live through another pregnancy.  However, I knew that I could not let my daughter be an only child either.  So, we had another baby two years later.

The two pregnancies put such a toll on my body that I knew that a family of four would have to be good enough.  The family with three children could no longer be my dream and the smiles, hugs and laughter from my two girls would be wonderful.

I am now 35 years old and the life I used to live is no longer mine.  It's better!   At times, I'm not sure whose body I'm living in.  I can do things that I never thought imaginable such as walking with ease, driving at night, cooking, cleaning and so much more.  I'm living out some of my childhood dreams that I never thought possible, including having the third child.  Yes, I am elated to tell you that Steve and I are going to have baby #3 in May.

So far this pregnancy is a piece of cake compared to the first two I endured.   Don't get me wrong I'm still sick every day, but I don't need to be taken care of.  Instead, I am still able to take care of my family and  understand what my friends' pregnancies were like.  More importantly, I have discovered how strong of a woman I was to not only live through a terrible pregnancy once, but to do it all again so Winona wouldn't be an only child.  I have to be honest, as I look back I don't know how I did it.